SOMEWHAT IMPROVED VERSION

a week of rest, of anti-depressants and sleep sedation, which included a weekend of holding Charlotte, Ben and Alexander's grubby little hands while we trudged around NY: seeing sights, playing in Central Park, eating in China Town, telling stories, singing songs - has at least enabled me to stop crying.  mostly.  so, that's good.  it really is.  we came back home to DE last night, back to unremitting rain, the grass growing uncontrollably as deep puddles cover the entire back yard.  i spent today mostly reading, dozing, my cat cuddled next to me.  soon i'll even be able to face grocery shopping on my own.  i better, or we'll be eating the cat.

i also finally turned on the computer to see what's happening in the real world, and the journal world.  i'm hopelessly out of the loop.  but i want to thank you, my darling imaginary friends (which is what Tank Gurl calls those of us who are virtual friends, having never met in person, but who have grown close through journals, emails, IM, the virtual forms of communication) for all the comments, emails, comix, cards, words of wisdom, understanding and commiseration that i found waiting for me.  it's pretty amazing to have such a community of friends whose support and caring is no less real because i've never seen your faces or heard your voices.  your spirits, your presences, are so very real, and so very appreciated. 

the world goes on, the war, escalating death and suicide rates in Iraq, the lies, the billionaires not paying taxes, the astonishing facts with which we now live.  maybe we all read the same journals, but if you don't regularly read Progressive Musings you're missing a damn good thing.  Duane took the mercury issue and ran with it.  this entry gives you the scary in-depth accounting of how this horror came to pass.  why are impeachment proceedings, for any one or ten of the ten thousand possible reasons, not underway this very moment, as i type?   well, i'll be back on board the journal train soon, i think.  i've got to do a lot of reading all over the place in the coming days.  looks like it's going to rain my whole spring break, so the grass will just have to grow while i read and sleep, do t'ai chi, try to feel more like a whole person every day.